Hemmy
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New and needs company and commentsIm new, im almost 16. I being dieting since I was 12. Im 5”3 Im somehow unhappy with my weight, right now im about 113-115 my first weight goal would like to be 104-107 and my final goal would be 95-103. My weight changes somehow since I play tennis, run a lot and dance and little gymnastics.
Right now im not sure what I am, I do not like to considered myself a typical pro-Ana, I have my own ideas, im open minded I agree with some things and do not with others. I tried bi, but just didn’t help me and I didn’t want my teeth to fall of or my family to worry, I do not like them to worry to much, Im somehow Ana, I won’t eat anything that I do not know how much fat, calories it has. I am calorie counter and I love to eat healthy and burn it off.
I was extremely anorexic for a 2-3 months but I stopped since it was driving me crazy and I was falling to a deep depression and I lost control, and I lost many of my friends and my family was going crazy. My hair was getting really weak and I almost broke my left leg dancing.
So now I only eat in front of people, I do not want to the cause of anyone’s worries , I would like to have someone to talk, since I do not know anyone with an eating disorder, and I know if I try to talk to someone they will make me stop by force and make me fat, most people don’t worry about your health they only wan to make you fat, that’s my personal experience. So feel free to talk to me about anything, I hope I cant have someone to talk to, it feel really lonely sometimes, you know none to relate to,  lol that’s maybe just me.
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